Tonight I soaked in the tub outside in the middle of the Forest. My legs kept me awake in the early hours of the morning today so I thought I’d loosen them up a bit with hot water before I turned in for the night. I didn’t want to turn on the loud gurgling water jets because it was so peaceful in the darkness. The moon hadn’t wound around to my viewpoint yet, but the stars were bright points and patterns, peeking through the tall pines that encased me on this beautiful mountain night. Thank you. When I looked up to the stars I said thank you, thinking of my family and friends. One of those friends sent me something special in the mail today. Thank you. Came from an old fishing buddy of mine, Bill Tikwinski from St. Paul, MN. It was a card with a beautiful orange Autumn leaf on the front that announced that a tree had been planted in my honor in a National Forest. I love trees. Thank you. Gosh, and I’m not even dead yet…But it’s an awesome gesture just out of the blue. Tikwinski had a stroke a few years ago right before I left Minnesota and has had some recent surgery. Anyway, I think I’ll have a tree planted for him too, since I live on the edge of a National Forest and a National Fossil Bed Monument. Thank you. Going back to the tub in the Forest; I heard little birds under the eaves of the house and it sounded like they were snoring lightly. Long little song- like peeps from above my head. It was a neat little sound and in the darkness of the forest the little bird sounds were comforting. Then a dog or something less domestic, started to howl and I pushed myself through the steam and out to the steps and to the ground to head inside. Thank you, night. Thank you, stars. Thank you, little snoring birds.
have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to
order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house
into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our
past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.~ Melody Beattie
Falling Rock is the name of my Blog. I drove up the Ute Pass, where one of the biggest dangers is falling rocks, at 6:30 this morning to #1 water a friends plants because he is working out of town for a month. #2 Clean Jack’s house because he asked me to and I needed the money #3 Buy gas at $2.50 a gallon, #4 Buy some glue sticks and #5 Feel Gratitude.
In the midst of tears, halfway down the pass on my way home, I felt gratitude for having my life spared. If I hadn’t done all the above, maybe changed my mind about the gas or the glue sticks, I would have been in the worst accident I have ever seen on the pass. Firetrucks and ambulances were on my tail, rushing to the scene, as I pulled over to the side. SUV’s and cars were dumped over in the ditch, crushed up and what this rubber neck could see, looked terrible. A pick-up truck was facing the traffic with his wheels knocked off and a pit bull was roped to the door. It looks like he might have pulled out in front of traffic outside Green Mountain Falls and the other cars went flying in the ditch to avoid him. I’m not sure. Yeah, I’d say I missed it by about 4 minutes.
I did what I had to do today to help a couple friends out, but mostly to make some much needed money. My car was on empty on the way up and I scrounged for $2.50 to put in the tank early in the morning and cashed my cleaning the house check at my credit union on the way down. And then I stopped for gas again. Sometimes the money and the health thing get me really really down, but today my attitude was bright and I was just thankful that Jack called me when he did. Timing. His timing was just right for me to make some extra/needed money before my trip to see my grandchildren. There will be a time I won’t be able to lift his ancient but still powerful big red monster of a vacuum cleaner to clean his mountain solar house in the city above the clouds, but until that time, I’m grateful for the work.
Life HAS been difficult lately, however, I have been trying to adapt. I don’t question a recent piece of not so good news about my future, just hem haw a little about it, research it, take a break from researching it, damn internet! Grateful is what I feel right now. Not for the recent news, that was dealt to me for some reason from which to learn, but for my life today. It’s gorgeous today, not real sunny though, but warm and the birds are chirping and the mountain air feels great. I have a full tank of gas. Saw a good friend, talked to another on the phone, got texted by one, made some money, had some lunch, have another job to go to this afternoon and had my life spared by about 4 minutes on the mountain pass. I’m not going to ask why. But when I passed the carnage, I broke into sad but grateful tears.